The feelings of a solo traveller

So here I am, back in Chile. I’ve just finished my fourth month of travel and I still have two more to do. I’m feeling really annoyed cause I’ve been a little down for the past week and a half and I don’t seam to be able to get over it. I just want to enjoy the rest of my trip the way I started it. This is why I’m writing this post in hope to feel better afterwards.

Not every day is bright and pink when you travel. It’s like when you’re at home – you have good and bad days. I know that I am very lucky to do what I’m doing at the moment and that people would kill to take my place. I reassure you, I would not give my place to anyone on this planet! I will accomplish what I have started and finish my trip. This might be a single chance in life for me and I might not be able to leave for a six-month trip again in the future. It’s just that the bad days take a lot more energy to get over than the good ones.

For three months I’ve been travelling on my own. Taking the decision of going on a solo trip wasn’t easy but I don’t regret it. I have been accompanied by other people more than I’ve been alone. I’ve come across many people who were travelling with their partners or friends and I do envy them. I have met incredible people along my route and travelled together with a few of them for a couple of days or weeks and it has been a great experience. My dad joined me for three weeks and I’ve experienced how to travel with another person which was great. I think it’s a lot easier to travel with someone else as you can both rely on each other. You take decisions together, you can let go a little bit more. You’re two to take care of all the stuff and keep an eye on it; when you’re alone you have to take everything everywhere and it’s sometimes tiring. I’m sure there are also disadvantages when you travel with somebody, being 24/7 with the same person mustn’t be easy either.

A few days before my dad left I started to fear the time when he would return to Switzerland and leave me behind. When he left I just wanted to fly back with him. I’ve also been missing my friends who are very important to me. They have always been there for me in good and bad times and I just wish I could share some of my trip with them. I’ve been in contact with them quite a lot (thanks to modern technology) and I want to thank them for their support. I do want to go home but if I go back earlier I know I will regret it as soon as I arrive.

I’ve been going back through my Facebook feeds and I’ve noticed all the encouraging messages that I’ve received from many of my friends and it’s very heartwarming. I think it will help me to move on until the end of my trip.

When I was in Peru and Bolivia I really felt the change of scene that I was looking for. It was a massive shock which was amazing, and I felt totally disconnected from what was happening in the rest of the world. I think that I was feeling happier there than in Chile or Argentina. Since I visited these two countries, there is a feeling of being back home in a way because everything is more “Europeanised”. The cities are cleaner, nice cars on the streets and everything is more expensive.

Good things have happened to me during these last four months. One of the goals of my trip was to quit smoking and for the last month I’ve hadn’t had one cigarette and I’m very proud of that. I don’t miss it. I’ve also lost a bit a weight, not much but just enough to motivate me to exercising more. I also want to go back to a healthy life when I get back home. I have realised that there is too much excess, too much drinking, partying and not enough exercise. I’ve also left my comfort zone and done things that I thought I would never be capable of doing before my trip. I think that it’s given me more confidence in myself which I really needed. I still need to find a few answers to some of my questions because I still don’t have a clue what I want to do when I go back. Before I left I had a project of moving to the UK but I’m not sure this is what I want anymore… Life in Switzerland is very comfortable and the quality of life is above average.

Although I have seen nearly all the major attractions I wanted to see during my trip I still have a few to go to like Buenos Aires, Iguazu falls and Rio de Janeiro. I must say that I am really looking forward to some hot weather in Brazil at the end of August. I need some warmth and sunshine before I go back to the Swiss Autumn weather of October. Two winters in a row is enough and I have a third one coming around the corner when I go back home…

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4 thoughts on “The feelings of a solo traveller

  1. Hi, traveled 16 month through Asia and I am now currently back in Asia after 4 month in Switzerland. I travel with my boyfriend and like you say being 24/7 with someone is sometimes difficult. I wished some days we didn’t need to plan everything together. You feel sometimes that your freedom as one person is taken by the couple. And sometimes wanted to travel solo. The ups and downs I had them too. And wished one of my Swiss friends was there to hug me. But then I would always meet the wright person at the wright time. I like youthhostels for this. Continue doing what you doing. You don’t only travel in the outside world but also in the innerworld, your inner self. A beautiful journey to discover the world and your true self. Take care.

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    1. Hi Eveline ! I think there are advantages and disadvantages on either side. If you travel with somebody I think you need to take your time alone, it’s important. Decided to join a yoga retreat which I hope will help me find my inner self as you say. Have an incredible time in Asia and see you back in Switzerland ! Take care

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